Peeling the onion - Be True to myself.
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Earlier this evening I was reading my friend David Murray’s work and he was referencing a book by John Izzo The Five Secrets You Must Discover Before You Die. And it just reminded me of my days of peeling the onion.
I was clinically diagnosed with depression about 15 years ago. Once I didn’t step out of the house for over 4 months. My poor husband! We weren’t married than. That is true love (He was by my side during that time and ever after)! The doctor just wanted to give me some pills to “fix” me. I had a feeling that a pill was just going to cover things up for me. So, I went on a journey of self discovery. That entire journey was like peeling an onion, layer upon layer I peeled. I realized, all this time… I thought I was missing a few things from my parents or my first husband and I was waiting for them or someone else to fulfill those missing items in my life. So I can be happy. Then one day as I was peeling the onion, I had an epiphany: Only I can fulfill what was missing inside me. That was the beginning of my first reality check: Be True to myself.
No more blaming everything on what my parents did or didn’t do. Or why did my ex husband did A, and that is why I do B! No more playing the victim. Neither my parents nor my ex is stopping me, from going out side. None of them are around. Who is stopping me? I am! I was viewing the world for the first time untainted. I remember feeling strange, I was scared. Being true to myself means I have to take responsibility of my own happiness in life. What a concept? A concept that was so big that I wasn’t sure I can handle it. First step I took, I got out of the house and I went to Ralph’s the grocery store.
That was my big outing. Now, that sounds funny, it wasn’t funny than.
Wouldn’t you want others to be true to you? Start with you, Be True To Yourself. You will start to see the true everywhere.
Giovanna Garcia
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It’s always a process of becoming what we where meant to be. You story is proof that we all can overcome our obstacles. It takes Faith.
Giovanna,
I am so glad you are taking time to give insight into personal development. Two key things caught my eyes are “Be True to myself” and “Being true to myself means I have to take responsibility of my own happiness in life”. We always forget this. We try to find external factors that could have impacted us.
Present moment is the only reality. Past is past and future is unknown to us. Why worry about the past or future. Enjoy every moment of our life and be blissful.
Personal development - a lesson or practice we very easily overlook! I truly feel that our society is now taking stock and realizing that true inner power comes from within. Not external resources. I look forward to this progression!
You got Dave! You inspire me.
It’s weird that this was the first blog I read. I am on such a mission of self discovery right now in my business and my life. Everyday I’m trying to give out more and more of a positive energy. I’m hoping this will start to help me get my wheels on track. I really appreciated your blog Giovanna and also all the time you put in to help others.
Dear Jacques
Thank You for the kind words. Finding the person we were meant to be. That is the journey! So far it has been a great ride. I once told one of my coach that I want to share openly, withold nothing. I want to come out “naked” figuratively speaking. And she told me “you can’t come out naked, becasue you are still decovering what is under there yourself”. None of us really know just yet. We all search everyday for the person we were meant to be.
All I can do is try my best each and everyday.
Come back any time, I love your comment
Giovanna Garcia
Dear Nithya
Be in the moment! That is the state I choose to be in. And whenever I look for something, I look within first. Usually is in me. Good or Bad!
Thanks for connecting with me, come back any time
Giovanna Garcia
Dear Chris G
I guest it was meant to be that I happened to posted that message and you happened to read your first blog post here
If you are on a mission of self discovery, you are in for a ride. Everything will be come clear to you, and your life will get real. This is great.
Keep coming back. I blog everyday.
Giovanna Garcia
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